Competing Forces

My life is a balance of the ebb and flow of my work life, personal life, and hobby life. It used to be that hobby life was a couple dance classes per week, and a quiet place to read or crochet. Or maybe watch some television (while I crochet). Then, theater entered my life and the balance became more delicate. Dance started to fall by the wayside. And the work/hobby balance got tougher. Personal life, which is my time with Boyfriend and my time spent doing personal necessities, became precious.

Work is a constant source of stress in my life these days. I never know what I’ll be doing in a month, six months, a year, so I worry a lot. And I find myself gravitating towards spending mental energy on my hobbies, rather than spending it on work. Work is tough, but not because the work is hard.

Hobby life is frustrating right now, but hopeful. I had a shock a couple weeks ago when I wasn’t cast in something I thought was a gimme. After that blew over, I found myself restless, wanting to get back on a stage or in front of a camera. So I applied for some film projects. I’ve gotten a response from one, and filming is fast approaching. After that, I have an audition for another period piece in about a month. After that, who knows?

I’m finding myself gazing wistfully at my crochet projects, but never quite finding the energy to pick one up. And I’m still trying to move more and eat healthier. Basically, I’m trying to better myself, professionally, physically, and emotionally, and it takes a lot of time and energy. Sadly, writing, which I suppose is a hobby that I most often neglect, has fallen out in the balance equation. So this space gets updated in fits and spurts. I have a few ideas for future posts that I haven’t yet gotten together. I need to post the lovely items I got from the Chronically Vintage Etsy store, but I never manage to take photos while the light is cooperating. But one of these days, I’ll go back to being a regular blogger and share my silly life with all of you.

2 thoughts on “Competing Forces

  1. Goodness, can I relate to this post. My own work/life/hobby balance is a never ending work in progress, with hobbies usually falling (far) to the wayside, even though I don’t intend for them to. I’m trying to make more time for them, but it’s not easy and that fact eats away at me sometimes. I used to do a ton of crafting, which I so enjoy, but have not had time for it for all intents in over 2.5 years (3.5 if we’re being objective) and that drives me nuts. It seems simple – just do that and not something else, but when that something else can help make ends met or gives me time with my husband or family, yah, I’m going to chose it over just having fun with my hobbies. We all need and deserve time off and “me time” though and that’s where the struggle comes in for me. I know that I need it, but I’m a workaholic and opting for a day off over working or being with loved ones, just gets harder and harder for me to do/take with each passing year. No easy answers/solutions here, I tell you!

    But enough about moi! I’m very sorry that you didn’t get the role you were expecting. That’s rough! I’ll keep my fingers firmly crossed for you that the film roles you’ve auditioned/applied for go in your favour, dear gal.

    Big hugs,
    ♥ Jessica


    1. Thanks for all your kind wishes! I’m excited for one project I’ve been cast in, and I have a few more auditions coming up that will, at the very least, allow me to indulge in some period-appropriate vintage inspiration. I think perhaps being better about taking care of myself will make it easier to motivate myself to do things while I have the opportunity.


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